hustle

lifes been hectic.
am sick
tired of work.
cant cope

love ozzie.

Hey Ladies

Sudah kubilang jangan terlalu yakin
Mulut lelaki banyak juga tak jujur
Bila sakit hati wanita bisanya nangis

Sudah ku bilang jangan terlalu cinta
Kalau patah hati siapa mau nolong
Seperti langit dan matahari tak bersatu lagi

Hey ladies jangan mau di bilang lemah
Kita juga bisa menipu dan menduakan
Bila wanita sudah beraksi dunia hancur

Hey ladies sekarang cinta pakai otak
Jangan mau rugi hati dan juga rugi waktu
Bila dia merayumu ingat semuanya bohong

Memanglah tak semua lelaki busuk
Namun ladies tetaplah harus waspada
Semogalah kita semua akhirnya
Mendapatkan cinta yang tulus

Sudah kubilang jangan terlalu yakin
Mulut lelaki banyak juga tak jujur
Bila sakit hati wanita bisanya nangis

asthma

Okay, where shall i start.
hmm, how about sch.
im so caught up with friday's presentation that i got no bloody time to do CP assignments which was due a long time ago.

next, about the ex.
sorry, got jealous at that moment.
am over it but dunt ever start ia again.

I miss ozzie as usual.
i cant wait to see him on friday.
wanna bite3.

we talked on the phone and laugh till i sempot.
cute right?
then use ,nebulizer.
woohoo
now high,shiver shiver.
haiz.
okay then,off to bed.

I dunt knw why i got so jealous of ozzie smiling to the ex.
but come on.
ur fucking engaged ozzie.
and i dunt know y am so jealous, screw her, she's a minah.
pretty for a minah that all i cn say.
but ciome on, please eh.
it it was me, id ignore.
but u got so ahy and all that
balls beb balls, where'd it go?

i know it was 2 days back that this incident happen.
but its hard to let go.
and now ozzies not talking to me cz his pissed cz im pissed about that fucking minah.
hmmmm.

but to look at it, for godsakes, im engaged to oz.
i got him already.
y must i be afraid.
on the otherhand, MOST guys flirt alot.
husbands have mistress.
wat more just fiancee.

but i dunt wanna let the evil conquer me.
must be optimistic right?
hmmm
complicated life right?
now then u know.

whatevr it is, again,
i miss him.

Caffeine

Listening to Going crazy-Natalie

Its 12 in the morning and im on caffeine.

I just miss ozzie.

Just like the song, i only got ozzie's t-shirt on.

Haiz.

Its so hard without him.

I just dont feel like being home.

I always have something to look for at home, which is him.

And now when he's not aroung, i feel like i've got nothing to look foward to.

Had red bull a minute ago, then coffee.

btw, issit okay to take panadol with coffee?

cz i just did.heh.

well, im caught up with sch, but my lifes tied up.

Can u imagine the stress im going thru?

When cn i meet ozzzie?

Btw i love Stripper by soho dolls. It gets me in the "MOOD" LOL

I miss you

I miss bali

I miss you.
I miss your love

I miss you touch.

I most definatly miss your kiss.

I miss you being around me.

I miss our old times.

I'll always cherish it.

people are cruel.

They dont get the point that i just need and want you.

you're my daily dosage,needed to survive.

I know we'll make it through papa
I dunt give a damn about what ppl say or think.

I LOVE YOU

besides my dreadful life now just missing ozzie,

REDBULL X FIGHTERS MOTO XX WAS THE BOMB!!WOOOHOOO!!!

Angels and Demons was good.

Chrysler cab fair is a killer.

Busy

Been busy lately with life.
Sorry for the late update.

School's been hectic.assignment pending.
But excited that tmr, till sun is a holiday.yay!

Been going to the beach lately so im darker now.
errk

Kitty's been mischeivious. Cant take it!
She bit my nos last night.
Of course i cried.

Lets not talk about financial, u know its always dry.
Buy things for partner but nvr get anything in return.
he doesnt even take good care of me.
Im always left alone.
I give him whatever he wants, buy him everything (end up, no money to get myself stuff)
what do i get? NOT FAIR and opinions, u think his for real?sincere?
i got a bad feeling about this.
love's been messy and rough.Still with one but boring.
partner's been quiet, desnt wanna talk to me.
No mood. Wants to go out alone.
Hope he hasn't diverted.
I mean come on, he has the whole day alone everyday when im at school, god knows whats he doing.
Give him what he wants

soo tell me, what more gan make it worst?

Walking at Night alone

holding my breath walking at night with you
i get to hear your voice again
if this is a dream, maybe you'll stay with me
stay with me, please stay with me

this is where we met
we're back here again
don't leave me alone
don't leave me alone
i can't stand the way the world feels
when i'm walking alone

can you please keep talking to me now
tell me all about your new friends
i know you don't think i can hear you now
but i'm listening, i'm listening

and this is where we met
we're back here again

don't leave me alone
don't leave me alone
i can't stand the way the world feels
when i'm walking alone
love seems like a mess
when it won't let go of me
but when it's gone i don't feel
when it's gone i don't feel alive

don't leave me alone
don't leave me alone
i can't stand the way the world feels
when i'm walking alone
love seems like a mess
when it won't let go of me
but when it's gone i don't feel
when it's gone i don't feel alive
when it's gone i don't feel alive

Cry

Jealousy sets in.

People seem to be enjoying life,

not me.

traveling here and there.

getting married,preggers, and delivered.

Be it in a good or wrong circumstances.

I envy them.

i know 2 yrs down the road,

it'll be my turn.

but i cant seem to enjoy and treassure the moment now.

Environmentally unfriendly.

they dont care about how i feel

haiz

Make it Work

Have you ever felt that nobody appreciates you?

What shall you do?

When much effort had been put in,

but they just ignore that.

Why do i even waste my time?

Why do we bother?

I cnt help but be a good person.

I just wonder, what is in that pea brain of theirs

so heartless, so cold.

Been So Long

Sorry peeps for not been updating frequently. been caught up with the harsh reality lately.

Oh this was at halfway n 5th april.went to esplanade earlier to longboard but it was raining.so me and oz headed to halfway for awhile.Oh i longboard-ed,(is there such a word), with a DRESS!!!


Im feeling so tired now cause me and dearest went to bishan skate park in the morning. I had fun with the guys,they're really funny and great to hang with.I was bored of being the Bad photographer so i cruz round the bowl for awhile.Oh and guess what.i didnt know ozzie knew how to play the bike.yeehaw!lol.oh and he swapped boards.coolio!But the rest of the guys were good too.who would have thought that longboard could be played in a pool as well.that so like dog town right.love that movie.hee..however the day ended badly with misunderstanding. bla bla bla.. as usual.

Pictures: Bishan Bowl

To view more pictures, click 'view all bishan bowl' @ the side bar.

*Yawn*

Kitty is so cute, she's right beside me now.she just cant see me using the laptop, she MUST step on the keyboard everytime!

Next, Adrianny is so cute. Kakak Nana and Abg Ogy are blessed with this wonderful child.CONGRATS!i love her!!so cute. But always sleep.haiz.

Did i tell, i had a wonderful picnic with ozzie at the feild? it sounds crazy but its really nice and cute.


OH not to forget, me and ozzie got new peircings!! Smileys!! WOOHOO!!

oh did i tell, ozzie was sweet yesterday!we were talking about babies.all thanks to Adrianny!!lol.We cant wait to have one!!WOOHOO.

Aight keep updated.

Chasing Pavements

*sigh*

Things been alittle wierd lately.
Cheating?i hope not.
argh nightmare.

but wheres my ozzie that i knew?
the one whom i first met and went desaru with?
wheres my ozzie from the last 2 weeks?

remember?in the recent blogs,i was saying how happy i was?
well i really was.
but after a night of happenings,
it began all over again.
ozzie and i can sit for hours with each other but not saying a word to one another.
he claims that he doesnt have a conversational topic.

Is that how a relationship should work?
of course not!!
especially not mine.
where goes my fantasies and fairytales?

ozzie,buck up and i will too.i hope today will go well.

RollerCoaster Ride

Here we go again.
Have u ever felt like your hanging on a thread?
and u want to let go but u cant?
because you are stuck and nothing, nothing can be done?!

Well, i know.
and im tired of it.
SO tired of it.
With many ways i've tried,i'm always giving up.
Knowing that I should have given up a long time ago!

Fantasies are ment to be fantasies,
Life is meant to be a bitch;
Heart is meant to get hurt,
Lover's are meant to make it worst.

Cruelity, egoism are they a nature to men?or is it only nutured in him?

And with that, nothing can ever change.
(unless ur not engaged)
Hmph!!!

Not knowing how long more i can stand, nor the thread can withstand me.
The more we work, the more twisted it gets.
Life's cruel, but u dont care.

How i feel,is never a thought in you.

Lullaby

Saturdays cruz outing. Sneak Peak to East Coast(Singapore International Skate park).
Look how small i look beside the bowl!!
I was a great longboarding session with the guys.
Yes, got a board for my own no.the white one at the bottom.
"freedom "baby!!
quote" Loaded boys vs turbo" - Ozzie.

Big boy's gone for awhile now.
He was stolen by my 12th floor neighbour cz they liked him so much so i got myself a new kitten.
kinda like a siamese cat.
so cute.even dad loves it.
we bought him bedings and all at ikea.
and "kitty" loves it.

Meet "Kitty: named after dad's old cat.

Anyways, I cant wait to check out "new moon" movie.

Twilight's sequal. Robert Pattinson is so effin hot.i love it.Still in "Twilight Craze!!"

Oh and i cnt handle Math Assignments.toomuch.somebody help me!

Craze

so again, am bored, am at home chatting with buddy howard.
lol
great to finally talk after so long bro.
missed all of ya'll
keep me updated and see ya'll soon.

didnt go to school today.
dont feel well.
stress anxiety!!
i havent slept since yesterday,
i had nausea, my stomach was churning real bad, and i couldnt breathe.

Boo is out to fetch me a longboard!yay!!

Ahh this hottie. Can u believe it?im still in "Twilight craze"!!I watched it like twice today.Hmmm

Digital love

In school now, and im bored to death.
I feel really tired, and the music isint helping at all.

Anyways, I love Ozzie more now.
He's been taking real good care of me.
I like it.
And believe it or not,he said ive been doing the same as well,
i've not been snapping at him lately and ive been keeping some peace.
Thats a good start. This is what i want from my engagement.fairytale baby.

Boo

Hey check out my video on youtube. i can slide now.

Anyways, im good at "tap tap" now.
and i love it. i have to play it every night.
and i'll dream about it.
right oz?
haha
and because of that, i love dance song. LOL.

My Everything

Here's the new Haircut!

I know, i look weird. After 2 long years of long long long hair, ive decided to cut it short like shanna. However, disaster strikes and i had to RE-cut it even shorter to make it look better. you'll know what i mean if u see it.

I love this man but he makes me crazy.
He even calls me insane.

I dont know what i'd do without him.

He completes me.

(psst, like sweet liddat)

I've been stressed out lately till i get irregular P-days.

I've been dragged into my fantasy again.

But this time, its half reality.

I'm counting the days when i can walk down the isle with the man i love.

The environment hasn't been helping much, I become envious of them.

Everyone around me is getting married or expecting!!

When issit my turn?

Whatever ya'll comments are, i dunt wanna hear.

I got my reasons, and its not early for me.

Ive planned the perfect future.

Schools been crazy!

So little time so much to do!

Assignments one after next!
STRESS!!!

I never did get my getaways. its been raining alot these days. It worsen my gloomy mood.

Told ya the environment's not helping.

Finance wise, pretty drained out.haha

Always right?
When we have enough,we want more.tsk3.
Been growing money plant, Its big and healthy now,

How i WISH it'll really turn to cash overnight!!

Longboarding's been great. I can slide now!!!!Yehaw!

and im better than Some!woohooo!

This was take at bali after surfing.

Outside our hotel room.

I love this place.Great!

Next up, Improve surfing!! yeah?

I love my sister

I believe she's the only one who undestand me, turns out that we're much alike.
It was great spending time with her away from the other people.

Things been a little rough today.
Schools been shitting me, so much to do so little time.
Ozzie's been far than what i expencted.
he's drifting. HELP! Time and time again its friends.
What about me?
and mom has been braggin too much about everything.
dad been supporting mom!argh

anyways,...
im thinking whether i should cut my hair.
like....Shanna Moakler (no.1 idol)
suggestions?

Alone

At devils back.

I met ozzie and taufik to go longboard straight from school.
Im planning to learn some slide tricks cause im tired of doing the same old stuff.
if ur wondering what it is, please check them out (the videos)
www.youtube.com/user/Arsenick

Rambo,Razi,Ozzie,Taufik

Anyways, back to longboarding, "sorry honey, but i didnt know that u were that good at it. You proved me wrong" - to ozzie

well if u check out the video, u should have seen it.
well, im glad that he's working out( in some ways).
I just hope he wnt forget about teching me and most importantly not to forget ME.
Control freak?Kinda but whatever dude.
i gotta start somewhere, its not like i have u all the time. ur in ur own world
REALITY CHECK!!

Well, He met knew friends like taufik and rambo guy.
Im supprised that Mr flo razi followed too. *Wink-wink* ( u'll nvr know my story)!
they were good friendsd hahah.
u can find them in the vid as well. not bad.


Well, here's to fana, babe im updating okay! i kinda forgot i got a blog.haha
thanks for reminding.

Anyways, me and my girl hazel, we were talking about a movie we wanted to catch.
"My bloody valentine"- its the first ever 3D horror movie.
you guys should check that out as well.
I'll probably be the one out the cinema first, cz horror movie already sounds scary, what about 3D right?
haha

Im almost done with my schools assignment before i get some new task.
Im not looking foward for tmr's class cz it seems scary.
Too much of a n expectation.too high. too strict.

I've been feeling lonely nowadays.i need a getaway, i need support, i need love, i need everything!ATTENTION PLEASE!
Ya'll girls free, pls bring me out.

hmm what else, must stop but cant stop.

psst, how to kurus?

Oh an btw, I still love them to death. Forever will be my idol.

You remeber this, Old times, miss it but it ended, no regrets.
I love Adi more, that y i got engaed to him!
pfft.

okay , keep updated.

Remembering Sunday

Hi all, apologies for not updating as i was caught up with life.
schools been draggy and hectic.
I've been struggling in my daily life as usual.
tryna find love from oz.

Been back out to learn longboard and finally progressing.
check out.
www.youtube.com/user/Arsenick

hmm. oz been out with friends today to longboard.im here at starbucks with lovely sis just to getaway from the buzzling life of ours and to catch up.

argh, sick.

Female version of a hustler

N0. 1 diva. cz im the female version of a hustler.LOL

Falling apart!!I agree with sabrina now.She once said that being engaged is the hardest thing. Well, it is.
Constant arguement and tension. Best part is, i have to deal with it everyday!probably because we practically have been together since back then. But its tough shit. Its not at all what i imagined it would be. No fairytale.

Its been hectic. I really dunt know what the hell is going on around here.I almmost feel like im on the verge of breaking down and giving up but to think of it, ive been in this for more than 2 years. Everyday im hustlin'. Like everywhere aand for everything.

Anyways, again, im in need of a getaway. like seriously!! any ideas?

I've been wanting to cut my hair, like Shanna Moakler. She's my idol remember? Forever she will be. Oh, Travis and shanna are back together. aint that great? but probably they'll break up again next week. i mean its never-ending right?HAHA

Hmm what else? beside wanting to getaway and meeting the girls.

OH im dead broke but i need to get alot of things! like who doesnt?Oh, haha and bills!!oh my god! too much. Waterbills and handphone bills!Damn.

Stay tuned.

xoxo ezashanna

Feels like home

Felling really bummed today.
got to know that desaru's trip this sat is canceled.
I really wanted to go!
whatever.

anyways, did i tell that ozzie start skating again?
He stopped before he went to ns, and so he was only longboarding at the time.
he's getting better at his skating and im happy.
but i dunt get it,he gets crazy when he skates.
such a dare-devil LOL
so much guts!
I'm still learning how to play the longboard.
kinda scared now cz i felll like real bad.

Btw school's been such a drag.
ya'll know me, i never did like it.
hmm
i serious ly need a getaway.
somebody help me?
anyways im hoping to see my ex classmates tho.
mis ya'll.
I know its me, i always couldnt be there.
for some reasons.hope ya'll understand.

stay tuned .

Flashing lights

This was on new years, more photo's comin by the way.

Anyways, saturday was a blast. Things went smoothly. It was glamourous, famously fabulous. Surrounded with camera's. It was truly a happy ending. I've got my heart back, as ozzie's back home again.

My gifts to the Ozzie's side.nice right.

Yes my hair is that long. its real.

Adi and Eza

I'd love to upload more engagement photo's but im tired.maybe next time.

Did i tell? I'm hoping to get a short getaway this sat with ozzie and another favorable couple. To desaru.

I personally believe that it has been an exciting new begining for me and hope it stays this way.

stay tuned.

We're so far away

I MISS BALI! i mean who wouldnt! (ignore the "naughty-hands", lol.)

Anways, im sad. Ozzie's leaving me for 5 days. He has to go home to prepare for the engagement. But i'll miss him terribly eventhou im damn eacited for the occasssion. He's leaving tonight and i'm going to be alone. how am i supposed to sleep tonight? whose gonna tuck me in?whose gonna make me sleep?i've got alot of worries!! I dunt want him to be alone there. Im afraid if he goes out without me. Im sure his going to yan's. Hmmm. I hope they dont go out without me. Anyways, I'll probably put up new years photos for ya'll to see.i had loads of fun. I know its abit too late to put it up but whatever.

Thanks to those who keep checking jyeah.

Miserable at best?

Life always gets miserable as always. ozzie and i cant ever settle our differences. He gave me a long list of what wrong thingd ive been doing to make our relationship down, but basically thats just me, my personality. I hope he realises as well, that im not the only contributing factor. Next, moms been pushin me to the limits. I know thats just "MOMS" but please, ive got my limits too.im tired really.. fam been having downfalls lately and i cant take it. especially when 31st is coming. My god!



Mom's birthday was awesome. was a blast but emotional. yeah, thats my family.complete 6.








This is my baby, big boy. believe me his big. i love him to death.he makes me happy most of the time. especially when ozzie gets me down.





well, thats all for today. Keep checking. i just hope and pray ozzie treats me right especially after the 31st, and i hope he wont be such a jerk.
xoxo, BunnyGirl